Update on Alyrah

Alyrah is now two weeks old and I have held her for no more than 3 hours total. This was never what I had hoped for or planned on but, it is moments like these that remind me I have no control over the situation. God is in complete control and I must lean on Him during this time. My plans fail but, his plans always prevail.

Many have told me how strong I am... but, it is not by my own strength that I am able to go on everyday doing everything I am doing. I have the strength of God flowing from within me. I have to come to the realization every single day that I have no control over this situation... this is a hard realization for any mother, but, it is a refreshing realization in many ways.

Alyrah is doing so much better, I do grow discouraged that she is still not successfully taking 100% of her bottles. Each time I grow discouraged one of the NICU staff remind me how sick Alyrah was and what a miracle it is that she can even eat anything on her own. Because of how amazing she looks it is hard to think of how sick she really was. I am ready for her to start dominating her bottles so she can come home. God's perfect timing...

I have completed all my NICU mom training (you have to watch videos before you can bring the baby home). I have one on one training with the Physical Therapist (to help build her muscles and to get her feeding technique down). We have to hold Alyrah a certain way while feeding her so that she won't aspirate on her milk.

Above Alyrah's crib we have the scripture 1 Samuel 1:27 "I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of Him." God gave me this scripture a few months before I even became pregnant with Alyrah. At the time I thought it was because this pregnancy would be high risk. I never thought it was because God was truly going to give us a miracle baby. Everyday I walk into her room and I can't help but, smile at the reminder that is above her bed. God truly has given us what we asked of Him.

I am one tired mommy and I cry often but; serving the God I serve, having my amazing husband, family, and friends has helped me make it through everyday.

Thank-you for all of the encouragement and prayers. Keep them coming!